So I've been single for 2months and its been like a rollercoaster of emotions. I've felt every emotion imaginable . its not easy to stop thinking of yourself as 2 and not 1. from doing laundry to food shopping. I've thrown away so much food because i made to much. if I don't distract myself with something my mind goes down the rabbit hole that i don't think i could safe myself from.
I never thought i would be single again, I actually never wanted to be. i loved coming home to someone. having someone that was mine and only mine. that i can talk to about anything and everything. I miss being in love. i miss being excited to see him. at some point we became more friends and less lovers.
Instead of talking to each other we allowed other people into our lives. sometimes i wish i was more of the jealous type but at the end of the day i never though you wouldn't choose me because i always choose you. God i hate myself for missing you, your laugh your smile the way you smelled, the way you hugged me, how you kissed me after being away from each other... Damn i just miss you.
But in reality you was never good for me and i was never good for you, i just remember what we use to do.. (JS) said it best.
XXOO
LJW
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