So I've been single for 2months and its been like a rollercoaster of emotions. I've felt every emotion imaginable . its not easy to stop thinking of yourself as 2 and not 1. from doing laundry to food shopping. I've thrown away so much food because i made to much. if I don't distract myself with something my mind goes down the rabbit hole that i don't think i could safe myself from. I never thought i would be single again, I actually never wanted to be. i loved coming home to someone. having someone that was mine and only mine. that i can talk to about anything and everything. I miss being in love. i miss being excited to see him. at some point we became more friends and less lovers. Instead of talking to each other we allowed other people into our lives. sometimes i wish i was more of the jealous type but at the end of the day i never though you wouldn't choose me because i always choose you. God i hate myself for missing y...
Hello 2021, it so nice to see you!, I'm so glad that its the new year i tend to love new years. i love the idea of starting anew. I don't believe in resolutions but i do believe in setting realistic goals for yourself to achieve in the new year. For myself 2020 has been horrible not just because of the pandemic but i went through alot of personal shit that I'm still managing to survive. my boyfriend of 16 years decided he wasn't "romantically" in love with me anymore and broke up with me.. if that wasn't bad enough he did it through a fucking text! i was beyond hurt and angry there isn't a word created for how i felt, or how I'm still feeling. the breakup i can handle but its the lies he claims to be have been unhappy for 2years... 2 fucking years of lying to me of making me believe we were in a good place. the last 2 years have been hell for me i was going through depression and anxiety which are both new for me i didnt know how to handle it so...